First experience being “down in the dumps”!

I guess we all (and by “all” I mean RNY post-ops) do it — we make an error that causes us to “dump”!  OUCH!

I was just a month post-op last Thursday when we went away this past weekend. I was a bit anxious about dining out – it’s not something I really want to do very much right now.  I tried to be really careful of course, but as we know, we don’t really know exactly what a chef is putting into each dish.  So Friday night, my very first meal “out” – there it was – about one hour after eating at this amazing waterfront restaurant on the crystal coast of Carolina – pain in the center of my “gut”!  Then the weakness came on.  Then, I felt like I had the flu.  I knew right away – too much fat in my dinner tonight!!

Thankfully we ate late and when the “dumping” began, I was already in bed for the night.  I was able to just roll over and get through it.  But, I felt pretty guilty that I wasn’t more attentive. Excellent, a chance to beat up on myself I thought.  Old habits die hard.

Emotionally, it being my first time in a nice restaurant since surgery, it was a bit difficult.  My eyes wanted to gobble up everything on my boyfriend’s plate (yes, he had a rack of maple & bourbon glazed ribs — seriously!!), but in the end, I did not let my emotions run away. I looked out at the water and the beautiful sunset and just said out loud: “I am so grateful to be here”.  I was, indeed, grateful I could be there.  And I had this fabulous tool within me now so I was NOT able to overeat.  I was not able to eat all weekend and go home 5 or 8 pounds heavier.  I thought to myself: “Brilliant – I can be here in this beautiful place, have a few bites of some yummy things, and NOT have tight pants at the end of it all.”  Yes – brilliant!

It’s a strange life I’m living now with this “altered stomach” – some days it’s a bit overwhelming for a moment, but I just keep thinking: “I’m not giving up”.  I will do what it takes to be healthy and fit. If it doesn’t work one day, I will try again the next.  If I fall down – I will get back up again even stronger.  That’s how I have always been in life.  That’s who I am.  That’s how God made me and I am not going to let Him or myself down.

Giving up is NOT an option.

Here’s to health, happiness and good hair days 🙂

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About The Wellness Sleuth

Hi, my name is Kat and I live on the east coast in the southern US. I'm a mom of a grown-up human and a furry puppy. I am a Software Engineer, Coach and small busines owner. I published a book in 2007 and keep meaning to start on #2...so, maybe blogging will nudge me along! Please check out the "about" page at thewellnesssleuth.wordpress.com to learn more about this Wellness Sleuth.
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