Most days for the past couple of weeks I feel like I’ve been “altered” by my RNY forever already – or at least a lot longer than a mere three weeks. But I know that isn’t true because I’m still overweight. Honestly, I thought I would have been a little lighter by now. I’m 20 pounds down and while I won’t complain, I admit, it baffles me how I can be eating between 500 and 900 cals/day with 80 or 90 g’s of Protein and ONLY have lost 20 lbs?
I won’t complain – again, I’m focusing on the positives: Maybe I won’t lose muscle mass; maybe I won’t have as many wrinkles, and so on. Hmm, mostly I’m focusing on: “Why is that darn dress still too tight?” 🙂
All in all, I am doing really well. I’ve gotten a few “food items” “stuck” and gosh – I have got to learn NOT to do that. Sometimes when I’m really hungry I forget – “go slow”!! I tried some real food over the weekend (chicken, vege burger, and hmmm, something else) and yeah…ummm, no – not quite ready. I have returned to puree/soups/etc. for at least this week. I thought I was ready, but I guess not. Ok, eating “real food” is really hard…I chewed each tiny bite like 50 times…and I was still stuffed after about 2 oz of food. This is difficult on the head, that’s for sure!
Onward and forward….I truly had a goal of 30 lbs in 30 days….but, as I well know, my body can be very uncooperative. I am so happy for those who lose 100 lbs in 6 months (kudos!!) but I am highly doubtful I will be so lucky. More likely, this journey will be like the rest of my life – I have to work super hard for anything good. But you know what – that just has to be OK.
My head is learning to love my RNY. I do not have buyer’s remorse…I am only looking forward to a month, 6 months and a year from now.
Here’s to health, happiness, and good hair days 🙂